Wow i feel like crap today... so moist and slimy, squeshy and doughy. This has probably been the worst week ever. HAven't done a morning shift in such a long time my whole bio colock's been screwed up.
Damn those people who worked shift for a long time deserve my respect man. I feel so worn out, so tired, plus this nagging pain in my lower right jaw and gums after its long battle with the machines, i've become a drained man. Goin to work took hell of a lot more effort. Damn why can't i get a week's MC!!!?!?!!
Argh. Everytime i get home i feel so lethargic, so lifeless. DAmn it.. its not a way to live!!!! I've decided to make better use of my life, gotta live it up I'm young only once!!! But then, maybe i passed that phase, the young phase. Yeah that phase when i felt so alive and well, without a care in the world. When all i had to do was cry and i'd be fed. When i cried my diappies would be changed, when i cried ppl would come running to me. Damn i missed those times. I WANNA GO BACK!!!!!!
Be strong! its over, its time to face the future. You gotta put the past where it is, behind you. There will come a time when you'd have to be the one who'd go running to feed, to change the diappies. THe tables have turned my friend. What the hell are you doing at home on a SAturday!!! WHy WHY WHY??!?!
Is it because your brain is contracting? Is it because your muscles are so tensed and worn? Tanya Chua's on the TV now, singing," I think it's time, somethings should change, it doesn't have to be that way."
Is this a sign? Yes? No? Maybe? I'm facing a critical life decision here, and she has to come out singing this?!??I had chicken rice for dinner, and this song's the theme for chicken rice war. Extreme Make Over comes on after Wrestling. Wrestling..... struggling to win. DO i still have to struggle? Exteme Make Over.. do i need one for my life now? Everything points to CHANGE!!! I need to stop drinking form plastic bottles. I need to go back to the gym. I need to get back my beautiful body. I need to put on the weight i lost. I need to study and get the papers. I need to get rid of my braces. I need to sleep more. I need money. I need a car++chauffeur.
Need need need. Do we need everything we "need"? I want this i want that. Want want want. The News has mad women rushing to get cheap wedding dresses, and singaporeans women go to get sized out. The men don't get it.
