Bluddy.... Sheesh... wat a week...
Chinese New year is still on but i don't feel the excitement whatsoever...
Collected like 200 Bucks...... but then 100 came from my uncle so sad to say, the gathering wasn't that good.
Hell its been like this for the past umpteenth time, so what the hell am i complaining about!?
Still couldn't solve the internet connection thingy for the Unix server in the UAT room. Bluddy proxy's been set but then its of no use. Discovered i couldn't even ping my own static IP address so what does this tell you? The bluddy card isn't mounted yet or the driver isn't installed.
Man so sick, so tired of this job. Even my new colleague knows that there is no potential for growth in the company. How useful can i be with the experience gained from the company? Virtually nothing.... Why? Cause its a damn proprietry software which is in-house developed.
Hmm, i've discovered that i have not gone to church since Sun 14th of Dec. How long has that been? Like almost a month. Its already the 26th today. Have i been a good christian? Not that i know of. Haven't been praying, worshipping, talking to God. What is wrong with me? Have i lost the first love? Why do i not feel the desire to worship Him, talk to Him, spend time with Him? What is wrong? What is happening to me? Am i blaming Him for the condition that i have now? Am i angry with Him for causing me so much discomfort?
I know that i must pray to ask Him to relieve me of my sufferings. I know, yet i do not. Oh Spirit Man, what has becometh of thou? How long have ye not touched the warm wooden surface of your instrument? What has happened to the desire to draw close to Him? To feel His love and care for you? Have you fallen too deeply from grace? Have you become so lukewarm as to be of, which would be spitted out from His mouth?
Return to grace my friend. Return to worship and adore Him. For He cares for you. Though ye have done wrong, yet He loves you with an everlasting love. His arms open wide at the very mention of His name spoken from your lips. He will run to you even as you run to Him, even more so. He yearns to hear you speak to Him as you would before, with heartfelt love and peace that He wishes to settle upon you. He longs to hold you in His arms, to love you and protect you. He feels such a great desire to pull you from the depths of sin and filth, and place you back to where you belong, beside Him, at His throne. Run back to Him oh Spirit Man, and embrace your loving Father, your God, who careth for you as no one else would. Send Him your requests and your troubles and lay them in His hands, for If my GOd is for me, who shall be against me. Speak to Him for His ears are open to listen to every word, to every whisper, to every request.
I speak encouragement to you oh Spirit Man, for your loving Father adores you and misses you. Come back, oh come back.
