Good day, ladies and gentlemen.
I'm back from my appointment on that surgical table. Past few days have been terrible. fasting for one bloody day... drinking water mixed with medical juices.
Damn they don't even allow me to eat porridge. Alli can take is water water water. As usual they made me drink that stuff to help me purge my stomache. Shit, and literally speaking, within half and hour i was emptying myself out till i can't count. Main finale, i had to mix some powder with water and drink that litre of water for the hour and continue with the next sachet. Before i even finished 25 ml, i was puking my guts out already. Maybe cause i had to drink a half glass of medical juices before i took the mixture, i don't know... but hell, they told me to stop drinking if i started vomitting so i did.
Next day, was weak like a lamb. had milo, but didn't do me much good anyway. Stomache still hurt but what could i do? Can't medicine to kill the pain. Waited a bloody 1 hour too just to get myself poked in the hands so that the doc could pump anaesthetic into my blood stream.
Amazing thing was, i met my old college mate there, lying 1 bed away. Cool, at least at last now i don't think its an old man's disease. Seems i was gonna go through the same procedure as he was. It was surprising too to know that the nurse told him, there was a little problem and he kinda struggled even though he was under sedation.
Would i be like that too?? I wondered. Oh well, since i was there, might as well go through it, even if i would struggle like a dead chicken its for my own good right? Ok.. so there i was being thrown into the slaughter room. Told the butcher i couldn't finish the mixture. Damn, maybe cause i was like the last guy on his list, he seemed kinda frustrated and told me if he couldn't perform the procedure correctly, it'll be a waste of his time and my time. Of course i wanna make it through the first time!!!! U'd think i enjoy getting poked by a strange instrument!?!?!?! I followed specific instructions that if i started vomitting i should stop taking the mixture which i did! Come on be a little more professional and try to figure out why i started vomitting in the first place and how to work around it!!!!
Fortunately, after he pumped liquid into my blood stream, i knocked out. But then i had some strange sinking feeling, i was kinda semi conscious and felt a little pain as the scope went into my intestines. i felt my face grimace, then everything went black again.
When i woke up, i caught the guy at the bed opposite me leave. Damn he came in later then i did, how come he was dressed, looking so awake and leaving already? Hmm guess i might have been given a little more sedation. A little while later, the nurse came in with some milo and good old bread... los of bread. Good, fibre for my stomache. Maybe i shouldn't have woken then though, cause the pain woke me, not that i crawled back into the light, i was jolted into it.
Back home, its night, couldn't wait to get back into bed... but it was not to be. Every hour into the night i was waking up to go to the toilet cause of the pain. didn't sleep well at all. Sometimes i would just sit in there just to wait for the pain to go away.
Woke up again at 6 a.m couldn't go to sleep afterwards. Still hurting. Damn it! Was supposed to go some place tonight with friends, but even as i am writing this the throbbing pain won't let me go. Damn even my mum is sick, had fever the previous day and now she's coughing like mad. Yuck its like the sickness spirit has invaded our home. DAMN YOU!!! GO BACK TO HELL!
Oh how woeful my life has been. From las year till this year. Haven't been feeling good, emotionally, spiritually, physically. Maybe its cause of the weight gainer that i took that brought me to this plight. Freaking weight gainers. Cursed company that made those weight gainers... no wonder their not on the shelves anymore. Rot in HELL BIATCH!!!
WOrst thing is.... my next appointment is on my bluddy birthday... CAN ANYTHING GET BETTER THEN THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!
