Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it;s not easy to tell you goodbye
take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away
2:27 PM
Friday, October 15, 2004
I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy
I never wanted to live a lie
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
Then I'm guilty
What am I supposed to do
Then I'm guilty
All I wanna do is speak my mind
Gulity
Then I'm guilty
I'm prepared to testify
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside
If loving you with all my hearts a crime
I'm Guilty
1:10 AM
Monday, October 11, 2004
The Three Guardians of my Com...
1:40 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
HOw Come?
So i changed, huh
You got a phone,
Pick it up, call me
How come, we don't even talk no mo',
And you don't even call no mo',
We don't barely keep in touch at all,
And I don't even feel the same love when we hug no mo',
And I heard it through the grape vine we been beefin' now,
After all the years we've been down,
Ain't no way, no how,
This bullshit can't be true,
We family, aint a damn thing change unless it's you
We were so young,
So full of life and vivrance,
Side by side wherever you was ridin’, I went,
So close almost was some Bonnie and Clyde shit,
When Ronnie died you was right by my side,
With a shoulder to cry on and a tissue to wipe my eyes,
And a bucket to catch every tear I cried inside it,
You even had the same type of childhood I did,
Sometimes I just wanna know why,
Is it that you sur-came to yours,
And mine I survived it,
You ran the streets I nine to fived it,
We grew up, grew apart this time went by us,
Then I blew up to both yours and mine surprises,
Now I feel the vibe I just cant describe it,
Much as your pride tries to hide it,
You're cold your touch is just like ice,
And your eyes is the look of resentment,
I can sense it and I don’t like it
It was my dream at first to be all spittin the verse,
On my own album with a deal but shit got worse,
So I came out I would'a killed a nigga first,
'Fore I let him disrespect me,
Or check me up with somethin' worse,
Some bitch that I wasn't with,
I would'a hit her to would'a quit,
But you were plain talkin' to her,
And tell her she was the shit,
I told you don't get involved with her,
You were smoking the cron'c with her,
Coming out'a the bar with her,
Stumblin' half drunk,
Like y'all husband or wife or somthin',
But me catchin' he fuckin' other nigga,
Must've hurt your pride or somthin',
'Cause you wolf I fit them after people,
Like you want it with me,
When all I tried to do is show you that your bitch was shifty,
And lyrics is the fans and all the shit that I produce,
You actin' like I ain't your man,
And lyin' like she can't be loose,
But I am really your friend,
I'm just trying to tell you the truth,
Don't hate the game or the playa',
The one that's changin is you
We gettin lonely at the top
cuz my homie had to stop
now we actin like i gotta live only for the block
and homies in the hood only see me on the tube
so they gossip on the porch, get ta speakin all rude
fools i used to rap with, all expect magic
like my finger get ta snappin and *poof* it just happen
but Proof its just actin, at the party were stoned
shady made it so my babys aint starvin at home
see the devil in your grin, since the ghetto we been friends
forever, real intelegience, thats forever till the end
I peep the hatred in your eyes and the Satan in your lies
aint wastin my time with these snakes in disguise
(How come) when you talk its with bitter respite
(And how come) its my fault for what you did with your life
and every time i go to hear you and play you look away
we barely embrace, you cant even look me in my face
5:01 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Wat a fateful night
Wellz, after weeks of doing Sat shifts, finally i got the chance to party. Tommy and Justin initially wanted to go Zouk, so ok.. meet the Tom at 9. Got there at 2130.. (haha got out late)..
However, he felt like Zouk wasn't the place to be that night, so off we went to Tiong Bahru to have supper. Lousy Hor Fun and Sun Mee. Walked so far just to put stuff into our stomach yet expose our taste buds to horrendous cooking. Oh well, so shall it be.
Dropped by Madam Wong after Justin picked us from our eatery and Keng Hoong, from his home. Got there at 11 plus, and to our surprise, there was a queue. Oh well, and queue up we did. Hmm the lady at the counter seemed to be lookin at me. Not bad, cute, but not my cup of tea. OH yeah, she asked if i wanted to open bottle or something like that. haha.... what was i thinking?!?
Got in there, Keng Hoong and i realised the music that day sucked. OH well, paid 15 bucks, let's pretend that we're enjoying the music. =p Lo and behold, who did i meet there but my insurance agent. She had never gone there before and it was a client who actually asked her to go Madam Wong's. We talked but the fella came and told her that they were seated somewhere near the bar three times!?! He looked quite unsavoury and well, i was a bit concerned for my agent. Hell she's married as well! She shouldn't be going out with clients to these sorta places..!
Highlight comin on! As we were at the entrance to the dance floor, i have finally witnessed my first fight. one drunk fella suddenly jumped onto two guys in the dark and started hiting each other. The management was quite efficient, cause within seconds the light came on, and we saw 4 guys sprawled on the floor hammering each other's faces with their fists. I wouldn't call it fighting, i'd call it little children just throwing their knuckles at each other, cause that was what it looked like. Bottles were thrown all over the floor and one of them got up and wanted to use a chair to hit the drunk fella.
Lousy brawlers spoilt everything. Did i mention there was a lady dancing at where we were standing and i caught her giving me a few glances, though i didn't reciprocate. Haha, i don't pick girls up at clubs, i only enjoy music and dancing and a little social drinking with my mates. Not that i'm gay, i'm not comfortable with all that picking up thingy... Not my style. (Unless i get picked up..hahahahahahaaaa)
OK back to the fighting, bouncers sprang into action, grabbed the little brats, and brought them outside. I could see one guy's face bloodied and another's eye blue black. And thats the story of my first fight. (First experience in a club that is..)
NOthing much happened after that, except that later in the night my contacts began giving me problems... like a sand in my eye. Kept tearing and tearing and i looked as if i suffered a major breakdown. Oh well, before i went home, the same girl who glanced secretly at me took one last look as she walked past me whilst leaving the club.... =p
And that's that.. So long true believers.. and keep the peace. Don't throw fists like those kids i saw.. =)
