Yea that true... In our society, thats the first damn thing people see. I've come to realize that in a rather unique way. Don't know if i'm just being sensitive, but i feel, people look at me in a different way as compared to my peers. Peers as in, those in the same age group. I'm gonna reach the big old 3-0 soon... but i don't look like it. So many people say i look like 24 25. Maybe its cause of the way i style my hair? The way i talk?
I'm like trying to carve a career here. If people don't find that i look my age, how am i gonna ever gain a little bit of trust? They'd still think that i'm a young spoilt brat whose trying to impress everybody. That's not the case anyway.
WHy should i bother about those people? Well, society dictates in a manner that the older you look, the more stable your career is and the more experience you have in the market. Looks Looks Looks. Who would wanna trust an ah beng with millions and millions of dollars of equipment and contracts?
WHy is it that sometimes, when i put on my glasses, and go to work, there's some sort of negative vibe going on. I feel like i'm getting bullied more often, people don't trust me as much, i get more work, my head starts to split in 2.... etc.
Does it mean, that as a geek, people despise me? Look down on me? Hell shit even wanna hit me? I don't know, cause when i have my glasses on, things don't seem to be so rosy. Is it my Feng SHui? the position of my bed? Where i place my computer?
What the hell... GOt Conjuntivitis a few days ago.. eye was itchy and swollen... did he care, didn't sounds like it... Maybe he thought i was trying to "Eat snake"....
Oh well, if his character's like that, i have nothing to say. Pile work on me? I've got nothing to say, but chastise me cause i'm trying to work for what i'm paid for, pushing me to do shit that others can shun, talking behind my back to other upper management, Damn.. no wonder Hamusa left.
Maybe i'm not cut out to do it, the extra shit. I don't know, don't tell me to do stuff that's 50 50 when its practically impossible to do both. Its either one or the other. Basically, i'd rather stick to what i'm being paid for.. and not something that i might only be doing with minimal responsibilities.
I wanna get out!!!!!! Leave!!!!! Get higher pay! Support my ride! Get a dog! Get the love of my life! Get Rich! Get high! But not on drugs!
Better sign off or i'd go jump over a building in a single bound. Superman Returns sucks, i'd rather be Batman Begins.....
