Its been a long time since i last posted something.. and if i'm writing it, i'm complaining it.
Fri.. stayed back at work till 830pm. Monday, stayed back till 715 pm. Tuesday, stayed back till 930 pm. Wednesday class till 930 pm.
What the hell. Let's count, Fri, Mon, Tues=3 days stayed back to work. Wed=1 day for class. And i haven't even touched my assignments.
Well, somebody commented that the company pays me to work. So, staying back to do things for the company for those 3 days... what is that for? Smelling the stuffy air of the office after the aircon's been switched off? Oh maybe, i've gone nothing better to do at home, so why waste it at home? Might as well work my freakin butt off! Thank you very much.
Anyway, i have to agree, yeah, my jobs a technical job, NOT a PR job. OF course! Thats why i have lunch with friends! Having lunch with friends is PR? Have i ever used my "influence" to get what i want? Have i ever pulled strings??????!! Talk about accusations!
You know, i find it strange when... asking questions is a fault. When is there ever a time when asking questions is wrong? Shed my dependency? If i was too dependent, i'd be asking ALL the TIME! Its a wonder why people only choose to see what they want to see, and leave out the obvious. Try, yes... i try so hard, and is that a fault? Oh thank you very much for saying that i try very hard and go above and beyond sometimes, but that will never be enough eh?
Hmmm the best thing is... How to plan what to do when you have no idea where your heading? Thrown in the sea to swim on your own... then thrown a sinking buoy till you find a floating piece of dead wood. I see the destination, but the path is dark. How to know where to step when you can't see the road in front of you? You have to step down first to know that its a path, then plan ur next step!! Not plan where to step before you even land your feet on the ground!! What logic is this to plan in the dark!?!? Strategize?? CrAPZ!
Don't seek to understand what i write... Seek the hurt that is building inside. See it grow. See the pain. WHere is the self-confidence? I see insults and pride and false accusations. Behold, the false prophet.
On a lighter note... here's my car with its new clothes....
