There a few things i hate, and last evening, they kinda popped out in my face. What are they?
Well, the very very first thing, is being made use of. Agreed that often in these days, many people are making use of others for personal gain, gratification. Its a selfish world out there, its a dog eat dog world.
They make use of you, and when their done, spit you right out of their mouth. What are you worth? What is your worth? We are all a selfish lot, but what's worse is knowing that your being abused for selfish wants. Its that knowledge that burns right through my bone. Are you all thats worth of? Are you placed in this world so that people can make use of you? What is your purpose in this life? Purpose is something that is very dear to me. Everyone's got a part to play in this existence, but to be used for personal gain is just real low and despicable.
I received that knowledge a long time ago. And having received that knowledge again opens out old wounds, and the pain is even harder. Its such a bitter taste.
The second thing. You know when you sit around, and talk with friends about the world, about society, about livin here in singapore, about making money, about living here, about cars...oppss stop right there.
Cars. Yeah well, singapore's one of the most expensive places to own a car. Public transportation is all well. Its efficient, fast, and readily available, in most parts. Its also a place with a fast growing ageing population. Its a small country, practically an island. Some countries with islands the size of singapore make them recreational facilities, but hell, its a place we live in.
But is owning a car really necessary in singapore? Everything that is made has a purpose. What is my purpose of owning a car? Convenience sake? Yes. Its also a form of filial piety. Why? Because my parents account for part of that greying population. Their not getting any healthier. Joints are weaking. It takes extra effort for them to travel. As a son, i need to help. I need to help lessen their burden. Granted it may not have been the top reason of owning one, but it is one of the top reasons.
Yet, many people chide me for getting it. Do i enjoy being chided? Of course not. They ask why your wasting your money to get a ride, to make it look the way you want it. Getting a ride is using its purpose, making it the way i want it is my character. But that's not the worst of it. The worst is when on one hand, your told that your mistaken to get a car, and on the other, they expect you to provide them with the creature comfort it provides.
Do you know what it sounds like to me? Its like somebody telling you that something your eating is bad and not good for your health. They stomp you on your head and leave you to die. Then they go behind and eat the same thing that you've been eating, from your hands, but in this case, your the wretched pile of crap on the floor.
IF you wanna use something, don't condemn it and then continue to use it. Its so freaking two-faced, and worse is being that pile of crap on the floor.
It takes time to know somebody. His history, and the joys and pains that he has endured throughout his life till the present. There will also come a time, when you character may be judged. How good it would be if there's a sign that says, "Hi, my name is blah blah blah and my character traits are blah blah blah. If you find that appealing please become my friend."
Wouldn't it save you a hell lots of trouble and misunderstandings? Unfortunately, that does not exist and people have to learn to know you through the hard way. Inevitably they will step on your tail and cause you to turn around and bite them.
Some people have questioned my character, and condemned yet abuse my gifts to them. IS that justifiable? FOr me, i can't take it. I can't accept the fact that i'm just a service provider. If that's all that i am to them. I might as well end my existence in their life.
